16 January 2017

Itni bhi himmat nahi h aaj ki post karun sakun yeh whatsapp pe sab likh ke hata diya bas ek screenshot leliya ki blog pe daal dun kyunki yaha kisi ko pata nahi chalega kitna dukhi hun sad hun tadap raha hun 😖😖😖 bas post bhi isliye kyunki main kisi se baat karna chahta hun bahut zyada main nahi reh paara akele nahi ho paara mere se yeh sab. Bachpana sa lagta h par tumse pyaar karna angaron pe chalne se kam bhi nahi tha badi muskilon se sab kiya tumhein khush kiya hasaya sulaya phn pe baat karte karte tumhein sambhala tumhara har ek important decision ka ek hissa aur tumhein apne ka hissa banaya tumhare siva koi nahi h zindagi main yrrrr koi nahi. Iss time main tumse milne ke liye kuch bhi kar sakta hun ek baar gale lagana chahta hun 😖😖 merko woh pyaar wapas chahiye jo jab main aaya tha tumhari aakhon main tha tumhein hasta hua dekhna chahta hun tumhari khushi ki wajah banna chahta hun manisha 😞 i love you kaash tumse yeh sab bol paata babu i love u 😖 tun mera sab kuch ho😖

Things you never said to me.

Things you never said to me.

Their are so many things that I know you felt all the time but you never showed it to me. I dont know the reason maybe it was one of your insecurity or you didn't know how to open up with those feelings because maybe that was new to you and you just didn't know how to react and when i used to say, Arent you gonna something? You replied i an just living this moment remembering it. I hope when you miss me you remember the day i proposed to you on one knee or when we celebrated your birthday. I hope you cherish those memories your whole life cause one of the things i wanted to give you was happy memories so you can just about the bad ones you had at that time i hope i succeeded in that hopefully! The thing is that the moments in which i was speaking from my heart and you were just listening to it i cherish them so much. I miss that moment so much when you fell asleep in my arms and after 5mins you opened you small little eyes and asked main so gayi thi kya ? I miss it so much that i can actually see it whenever when i want i just close my eyes and see it. I want to wrap my arms around you just like that one more time so that i can kiss your forehead when you fall asleep in my arms. You were and always will be my everything. If love means something its just you and you. Maybe in my next life but i really really want it to be with you. I don't have any regrets love, you meant everything to me. They say right tum jo kehdo toh chand taare tod launga main. Well thats not possible i am willing to try that for you and yes i am the same boy that used to talk to you everyday and said maybe i cannot get you the moon but i will write your name on the moon adjacent to my name.

I know you i really know you i have given up on getting back with you but these are the memories that i will cherish my whole life as the best time with best girl in my life. You are an angel. Wish you were mine for forever.

I love you
xx

Small Talks

Small Talks

I missed her today alot. Only God knows how i stopped myself from talking to her. Am I supposed to suffer like this? I was the good guy. I changed myself, my address for her actually everything for her. You know it was like when you meet someone and you feel like if god created someone for everyone. She was that for me she was my everything i gave up everything for her. She is my life. Sadly she just doesn't feel like it. Things are different for everyone and everyone's circumstances are totally different. I am not gonna blame her for my failed love. She is amazing, someone who will end up marrying her will be the most luckiest man on this planet. She will get the best girl in the world to live with. I wish that was me. Sadly i can just wish.

Love is simple right? A boy meets a girl they both fell for each other and they live happily after. This is the biggest lie in the world. I guess this statement is just for kids and we should learn it. Love is the most complex thing in the world.

This world is full of broken hearts looking for someone to heal them so that they can move one and break the heart of the guy or girl who helped in healing. I am not stating this for someone. Its just like this its like a chain reaction if your heart gets broken, you have the right to break someone's else heart.

But i am not gonna follow this.

I love you and i will always love you
Hope in my next life. We end up together I promise my love for will just increase than it is right after all. There is no one else better than you.

I love you
xx

Missing you

I miss you
I miss you every second of minute that passes by. I didn't broke up cause i didnt love you babu pyaar toh aapse itna h ki aaj tak kisine kisi se kabhi nahi kiya hoga 😔 i read somewhere if you really love someone set them free for their own happiness thats what i did but this is killing me from inside. You know i loved you so much that i stopped talking to everyone else. Now i dont have anyone to talk too. When i was getting distant from everyone to get close to you and spend more time with you. I just stopped talking to everyone because for me you were my everything. My daily good morning text to goodnight princess text it was all you but you didn't did the same i was okay with it cause i didnt care about it.
Its just that i fell in love with the wrong girl. I used to think sweet stuff as we would have a daughter and we will name her Khushi. Those memories still gives me chills and tears in my eyes that how much stupid i was to believe that stuff. I know I know i sound like a whiny women right now but the truth is i believed all that and i wanted all that with you.
I love you
xx